Freedom, Buddha and Janice Joplin.

Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress. Stress.

Something happens at work. When my boss goes on vacation, or goes to Cuba for work, or is just not there my stress level goes through the roof. Sometimes I feel out of breath- being pulled in a million directions and running towards each of them at full speed.

Program services. Vendors. Pre-Trip. Flights. Forms. Problems. Problems. Problems. Operations. Hotels. Blood drive. Foundation. Issues. Issues. Issues. Program services. Vendors. Pre-Trip. Flights. Forms. Problems. Problems. Problems. Operations. Hotels. Blood drive. Foundation. Issues. Issues. Issues.

Then something happens in my personal life.

Friends. Fights. Betrayal. Anger. Sorrow. Forgiveness. Forgiveness. Forgiveness. Bills. Pills. Health. Job. Life. Opportunities. Money. Money. Money. Love. Lack. Revenge. Ex. Girlfriend. HA.HA.HA. Friends. Fights. Betrayal. Anger. Sorrow. Forgiveness. Forgiveness. Forgiveness. Bills. Pills. Health. Job. Life. Opportunities. Money. Money. Money. Love. Lack. Trust.  Revenge. Ex. Girlfriend. HA.HA.HA.

“Freedom’s just another word for Nothing Left To Lose…”

Janice croons in my ear as the train rumbles and grumbles toward the city; as disapointed and disheartened as its passengers that it’s Monday. AGAIN.

The words resonate within me. Janice and Lord Buddha coming together in a single phrase.

Eshi said, “I’m high! I’m just happy, giddy, and feeling good.”

I said- “It’s called freedom.”

We have nothing left to lose in love. So we’re free and happy. Not depressed, not broken. Just free. Free to love as we please with no fear of betrayal, no expectation of reciprocation, and no rules or limits on how much we love.

Life is the same. When you have nothing, you are happy- for it is loss that causes pain. But the best form of being is to Not Want. When you do not want- then nothing can be taken, nothing can be lost. That is the ultimate happiness; the goal of every Buddhist and the message of every Buddha.

Remove want, desire- and there you will find the most permanent happiness.

Nirvana.

I’m am in relationship-nirvana. It’s awesome.

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